October 12, 2005

• out of a job

  
  

  it’s been a little over a month since my “last day of work” for ten40connect. 

  
  

  i woke up this morning and realized that this is the longest i have ever been out of a job since i started working my soph year in college.  i had finished college a quarter early, and the next monday, i started working full-time.  i have been working nonstop, no breaks in between since then, even if part-time. 

  
  

  and today i feel ansy.  to contemplate more and more days of nothingness sets me on edge.  but it’s more than just wanting to have something to do.  it’s the hunger for doing something important.

  
  

  i like to “play”, but i can only do it for so long.  if i know i’m living with purpose in the midst of the play, then play is wonderful.  but if it’s just days on end of playing, i want to beat myself over the head with a bat!  it’s hammered home too well: our days on earth are numbered.  i’ve gotta, i’ve just gotta, make the most of every minute and every hour….

  
  

  “may the few be many, Lord, may they seek you as you are, may the narrow road be wide here, wide now. may your Kingdom come…glorious and mighty are your ways in all the earth, and may your worth arrayed in glory render hearts that only worship you.  we plea that they may know you Lord.” – shane barnard  (i plea that they may know you, Lord!) 

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