what to do with secret dreams? i guess whisper them out loud and pray that it would be God's will somehow and some way. and then recognize that if it's not, have a smile spread across my face anyway because of knowing that the only reason why it's not is because God has better dreams.
secret dreams... to go to China this summer, do this internship with PESI for 1 or 2 years and then go to Vietnam for a short term trip, and then join Wycliffe and help with a Bible translation for ten years (or as long as it takes), and then help Pam with Hope Harvest for awhile, and then go around the world and shepherd other missionaries (pray for them, counsel them, encourage them with Scripture - this includes visiting Sam and all my other missionary friends) for a few years, and then come back to the States and get my teaching credential and teach high school English for a few years, meanwhile making plans to open that bookstore I had always wanted to open - and when all is set, I'll read books all day in my shop, encourage others to read... and finally get to writing my own! And when at last God takes me Home, I will be fully satisfied because I have spent my life on Him and will leave behind spiritual children who are missionaries all over the world...
All of which may be too unrealistic, but alas, that is why they are called secret dreams!
Secret dreams - to me - are like blazing pink sunsets - precious, captivating, inspiring...and prone to vanish out of sight in the blink of an eye as if it never made an appearance. I must lay my secret dreams on the altar and allow God to form the picture of my life. These secret dreams will quickly slip out of sight. But if they are not from Him... well, it doesn't matter anyway.
But, Lord, please let me be a missionary - and let it not be anything conventional. Lord, you have my heart and I will search for yours. Let me be to you a sacrifice.
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