As of yesterday, I am now 22 weeks pregnant. My tummy is at the 'perfect' measurement, according to my doctor, and I have gained approximately 20 lbs - yikes! The hospital bills keep coming and makes us want to cry every time, but all in all, I'm in a good place with the pregnancy.
I realized, however, that since I was so sick during my first trimester (0-14 weeks), there was much that went unrecorded. Here's my attempt at recounting my journey thusfar. [Warning: the following details may scare you out of pregnancy.]
The first trimester felt really long and drawn out, as I spent literally all day and night on the couch. The nausea was constant and relentless. I couldn't keep any food down, and every time I tried some food, I could only sit for a short while, have a few bites, and then I was back down again. Poor Sam was always having to get me something new (and different) to eat. The basics that I was able to consume were crackers, "peanut butter slices" (a slice of bread with peanut butter on top), and soy milk. I'm not sure how I didn't just waste away completely since there'd be days when that would be the only thing I would eat. We kept trying chicken soup until one day I realized that it was the chicken that was making me sick -- which made sense, considering the chicken sold in the markets have all kinds of hormones and arsenic injected into them. The smells of hot foods, in general, was always too strong for me. I even started disliking garlic and onions being sauteed even though pre-pregnancy, my motto was always "more, more, more" of those!
I threw up pretty regularly - maybe 3 or 4 times a day. Going to the bathroom made me gag every single time because of the smell (pregnancy = strong sense of smell) -- and often, being in there would really cause me to vomit.
During that time, I rarely slept through the night because I kept waking up from dehydration. My mouth would sometimes be so dry, my tongue felt like cardboard. I would wake up, drink water, go back to sleep and then wake up an hour or 2 later with dry mouth again.
I hardly left the house during those days, because I was way too sick to move. When we did go out, Sam had to drive slowly because the bumps on the road made my stomach swirl. Somehow, we managed to only miss one Sunday morning worship service. And somehow, I managed to make it through my seminary classes -- by God's grace!
The intensity of the sickness finally relented at 17 weeks. I started being able to get up from the couch -- to help Sam with the dishes -- and finally get out of the house to go places. Vomiting frequency decreased to about once every week or two. And now nausea really only occurs in the morning after I wake up, when I haven't had anything to eat for about 2 hours, when I eat certain foods (like chicken and pork), or when any food is old and not fresh (my pregnant body will tell you if it's old meat!!). The only meat I've eaten since I've been able to eat has been beef. Beef every day. Sadly, I still don't ever sleep straight through the night, but it's no longer from dehydration.
I started feeling the baby move around 16 or 17 weeks but wasn't confident that it wasn't just gas bubbles until the weekend of Mar 28 (18 weeks). After that weekend, I had no doubt that it was the little cashew's movements. In the beginning, it felt like bubbles and flutterings. Now it feels like stronger probes on the inside of my belly. Sometimes it feels like the baby's somersaulting inside. Sometimes it feels like the baby's dancing on my bladder -- seriously. Moments when the baby has moved the most: during Hebrew class the other night, when Sam's tummy was touching mine and he was talking to the baby, and when I was singing some worship songs one night. It's fun to feel the baby move. Such a surprising reminder that there's a real LIFE inside me - a little person! It's so exciting to think about. Amazing miracle.
These days, I'm enjoying having my "baby bump". My tummy is noticeably showing. I'll admit, it's fun to rub. Sam loves to put his hand on it and say, "Hi, little baby inside. This is da-da. How are you doing? Are you growing ok? I love you."
What I'm not enjoying is the back pain, getting tired so easily (my body can't keep up with my desires), feet hurting from standing for only a little while, having difficulty getting out of the depths of our sofa, and mostly, urinary incontinence. That's probably my least favorite thing to deal with at this point.
Surprises along the way have been the need to go up in various garment sizes, waking up sweaty in the middle of the night, waking up from overly intense and vivid dreams, waking up from my snoring sometimes (which I never did before), feet feeling too tight in my shoes, wedding ring feeling too tight on my finger (and having to take it off), and even having trouble putting on my own socks when I'm standing because my belly gets in the way. I can't really even see my feet anymore when I'm standing. All of these are apparently, according to the Baby Center, normal pregnancy issues.
Something else not so fun was the ultrasound ordeal. I call it an ordeal because prior to getting an ultrasound, you have to drink 24 oz of water and wait an hour before you can do the ultrasound. They say it allows for clearer imaging. I say it's just to torture a pregnant lady. That's enough to make me have to pee in my pants - literally.
Something funny that happened last Saturday when I went to the Carlsbad outlet with my mom was that my 'baby bump' ended up bumping into a clothes display because I misjudged how much space I need. I don't think Baby appreciated it too much, so after that, I kept my hand on my tummy as I maneuvered around crowds just in case I ran into something else.
Most embarrassing moments (that I'm willing to tell about) so far: One day, recently, Sam & I were walking around our neighborhood. All of a sudden, I started coughing because of some kind of itchiness in my throat. The coughing turned to vomit -- and I had to make my deposit right there in the middle of the street. Two men were standing nearby and witnessed the whole thing. I felt so embarrassed! The second bad vomiting incident happened one night after class. I got out of my car after parking it and promptly threw up right there next to my car. I felt like everyone in the neighborhood could hear me -- as the noise I was making bounced off all the walls. Fortunately, it rained shortly after I went inside the house.
One of the nicest things though has been having such a devoted husband, who was so willing to do everything while I couldn't. He went to work, cooked, cleaned and took care of me. I don't know what we would've done if we didn't have an egalitarian marriage. We certainly would've been sunk. And every day, he would say, "Thank you for carrying our baby." because he doesn't take for granted how difficult pregnancy is and knows what a sacrifice it is for me to give up my body in order to nurture our little baby into this world. It's made all this hard stuff a little less hard.
Here's me at 22 weeks!
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