February 20, 2011

  • Still Standing

    Yesterday, I heard Brooke Fraser's "Still Standing" come on my Pandora.  I was immediately warped back in time -- I was in the car, Sam was driving up the steep mountain to church on a Sunday morning, and I was nauseated because of my pregnancy.  It's funny how songs can send you back in time.  This morning as I was driving to church, listening to the same CD I've had in my car for the last few months, I wondered what this season in my life would be marked by.  When I hear one of these songs at some future time, what will I remember about this time?  That put things into perspective.  Probably, I would remember the tension of trying to figure out how to balance being a parent, studying at seminary, doing ministry and being the spouse of someone who has his own ministry all at the same time.  And then I realized that it's only been 6 months of juggling the first three and only 2 months of the last addition to our lives -- not that long.  And in a few months, things will change some more, I am sure.  The point though is how I have lived through this time.  There will always be some new mountain to climb -- but who am I in the midst of it and am I becoming the person I want to become?