March 1, 2010
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Relay Race
I took a nap today and woke up feeling even more tired than when I went to sleep. My body just aches with exhaustion, feels like a Salvador Dali clock sort of dripping, drooping, melting, wilting. These last few months have felt like I've been running a relay with myself. It feels like I'm running and running and passing the baton to myself. And as long as I keep a steady pace, I actually don't feel the brunt of my exhaustion, but sometimes, it hits me hard and I am suddenly aware of what my body has been going through. That was today and yesterday and the day before that. When it happens, I'll fall into a deep sleep for a few hours and won't even hear the baby's crying (until it gets really loud). And strangely, it's at these times that I find out that the more I sleep, the more I realize how much sleep I need. Too bad the race is still going on, and I need to keep pushing forward.
Tonight, as I was putting my baby down in her crib, I looked at her peaceful, sweet, little face and felt my heart soar. She gives my heart wings. I tell you, this race is so worth running.
Comments (3)
I love your honesty. Parenting (apparently) is exhausting but worth the sacrifice.
Thanks for sharing the ups and downs of parenting and for keeping it real. Glad to know it's worth the sacrifice! =)
Yes, it's definitely worth it. Parenting isn't always exhausting. And once we get beyond the first few months, it should get a lot easier in terms of sleep. But we love our little baby so much; it's definitely worth it even now -- times infinity.
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