June 19, 2007
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Long time, no entry
It hasn't been because I've had less time than I used to. And it's not been because I've had less thoughts than I used to. Really, the main hindrance of my writing has been a lack of courage. I have been lacking the courage to post what I have been really thinking lately because of the fear of being misunderstood yet again as I reveal the thoughts and revelations from God and the meanderings of my heart. As long as I write the echoes of mainstream thought, then I'm in the clear, but to dance in the wilderness of something outside of the same old line of thinking usually results in an uproar of misunderstandings. And the reality is that I've been dancing. A lot. So even though it's just my journal. Even though it's just my thoughts. Even though it's just my dreams. Somehow there's always protestations. And I haven't had the energy to cover all my bases in order to avoid the misunderstandings -- especially when all I really want to do is write one simple thought. So instead, I just stopped writing.
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remember majority of the people are 'blue'? and if you're 'yellow', it's inevitable get a lot of criticism. Erwin Mcmanus has numerous hate blogs dedicated to him because he's so radical. It's a good thing that people respond...it gives you even more room to challenge them.
I received a lot of criticism (often times unfair criticism) in the past few years about how I lead worship, and there were times when I just want to say 'I quit!'. But I realized that I just have to ignore those noise and keep serving the Lord through the gift He has given me. Keep writing Mary Ann!!
ahh... I love reading your thoughts. I hope my comments don't add to your list of being misunderstood. You're an awesome girl in Christ and I respect you very much
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