March 10, 2004

• i choose THIS adventure

  
  

  when the timing is right and the object in view is perfect, things will fall into place.  whether you look to the right or to the left, you will hear a voice saying, "this is the way walk in it."  confirmations will come on all sides. 
  
  but when that happens, you can't help but wonder, "isn't this too good to be true?"  isn't the door just gonna slam shut at any moment now?  God, is it possible that you are really leading?

  
  

  i keep asking these questions. 

  
  

  the gain:  it's been 3 1/2 weeks now since i've looked into, prayed over, been excited about, desired and even "surrendered" the most perfect job in the world.  perfect for me for right now.  an internship with a missions organization called Ten40Connect.  all of my passions rolled up into one.  skills i have picked up in the last few years - even randomly.  confidence that God has been building up in me.  everything fits!  it's like the stage has been set all along... it's literally too good to be true.

  
  

  the cost:  i made my mom weep last night.  which literally turned me into mush.  as she wept, i wished that i could just get a regular job and stay close to home - how "comfortable" a life that would be!  (and yet, how boring!)  but alas to not go would be disobedient to what i feel like God is calling me to do.  i drove away last night weeping too.  to leave my family, my friends, and san diego, at last (to move to hayward) - this is not going to be easy. 

  
  

  the next step:  i am currently working through all the hard questions on the application as i'm waiting for them to send me their proposal with details of the position.  i.e. a job description, how much support i'll have to raise, etc.

  
  

  the right perspective:  i don't want to be a clinging Christian!  today God is telling me to take steps forward toward Ten40Connect; tomorrow He may tell me that He wants me to walk in another direction.  i know that's the way He works!  i never want to be so shortsighted as to cling to what God previously told me; instead, i want to always be open and mindful of new revelations and new direction from Him.  life is about the process, not the product.  who knows, they might reject my application, and God will give me something else! 

  
  

  an invitation:  please join me in this adventure by praying with me... that God may have more glory in my life as i seek to obey Him wherever He leads me. 

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