August 14, 2003
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(Direct quote from my journal entry yesterday.)
I guess what it boils down to is that I’m learning to trust God – to really trust God – beyond reason or circumstance, beyond the physical & tangible, beyond what the world tells me is the best & highest. I’m trusting that it’s not marriage or money that’s the highest end but GOD. And God I already “have,” so I already have the best no matter what other gifts He might give me. I already have the cake — the substance — and the rest is just icing.
And I’m learning to hope in God. I guess I never really understood that til now. Hoping in God really means what I wrote in the above paragraph. It means looking to Him for my fulfillment, for everything – not looking to the world, to another person or some small, limited goal or vision – but looking only to God for the ultimate ecstasy, pleasure, victory, cause for rejoicing. My hope is in God, so therefore, I’ll never be disappointed. Isaiah 49:23.
The fake frills, lace and veil have been removed…. it’s God I want. It’s God who is real and satisfying, excellent and good.
